Come home soon

God I miss my parents right now... I need their support but I don't want to bother them on vacation. I want everything to be sunny and happy for them while they're in Nuevo Vuerta- I can wait - they'll be back soon. Unfortunately my sister could not wait and had to send them a huge nasty e-mail practically disowning herself from the family. I swear to god some days I want to strangle her. She is so selfish, she can think of no one else but herself.
I personally don't care if she doesn't want to hang around with us anymore - we're better off that way anyways. Less heartache.
It's a long story and I won't get into it now... I guess the point of this e-mail is just that I simply miss my mother and father.
Come home soon....

News Flash for the Jenn Spectrum

Mom and Dad are off to sunny Nuevo Vuerta, Mexico... god I envy them.
I'm glad that at their ages, and after everything they have worked for so hard, my parents can afford to take these yearly honeymoons.
I can't wait to have that for myself.
So, it's left to me to cat sit... which I don't mind at all, going out and checking on Abner... playing with him and making sure that he still has a pulse.... it's no fun playing with a dead kitty.
Anyways... I guess Jacki left this week to go meet her birth mom and the extended family that goes along with that.
I feel bad that we were fighting before we left and that we seem to no longer be talking... not that I have done much to counteract that... I could have called her....
But when I did call her at work on Friday it was too late because she had an out of office message for Thursdauy - Tuesday.
We seem to always be fighting this way now. Through work e-mail of all things...
She drives me crazy, but I love her like a sister... a sister I don't have...
My real sister is a pain in my ass and I don't know what to do about her anymore...
She makes everyone question everything she says by lying and stealing.... from her mother of all people.
I don't want to get into it because it's an absolutely ridiculous story and I'm in too good of a mood to wreck it.
I had a great day.... went out to my parents place, did my laundry, baked, played with the kitty.
And listened to awesome tunes while crusing back home.
Pete was awake when I got home and he's in a great mood too.
I love these days, when we both hit each other on a feel good day and we're each more considerate of each others feelings and we both just want to be around one another.
If I weren't getting all these bad karma vibes from fighting with Jacki it would be perfect.
But I guess I'll have to wait to make up for that bad karma.

On a happier note, Petes taking me to the Keg for Valentines Day! WOOT!
And we both decided we would buy each other massage packages from Giseles at Portage Place for Valentines gifts and then go together next Saturday... is that over the top adorable or what... yeah, he's a great boyfriend...
when he wants to be... but he's the one coming up with all the bright idea...
However the Keg was my idea... as was my idea of him paying for it :)

Gotta love it.

Off for a date night with Petey.

Love.... Jenn

The Keys to My Heart

The Keys to Your Heart

http://images.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/heart.jpg"> You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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You Are Miss Piggy

A total princess and diva, you're totally in charge - even if people don't know it.You want to be loved, adored, and worshiped. And you won't settle for anything less.You're going to be a total star, and you won't let any of the "little people" get in your way.Just remember, piggy, never eat more than you can lift!

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What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem energetic - almost manic. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

A song to live your life for

Des'Ree - You gotta be

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold You gotta be wiser
you gotta be hard You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
my oh my hey, hey..

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold You gotta be wiser
you gotta be hard You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
oh oh oh
Remember

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

My oh my heh, hey, hey

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold You gotta be wiser
you gotta be hard You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day x2

You got to be bold
you got to be bad
you got to be wise
Don't ever say
got to be hard
not too too hard
all I know is love will save the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold You gotta be wiser
you gotta be hard You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm You gotta stay together
Yeahhhhhhhhhhh

Wish me luck

I have pushed away all my friends... my boyfriend has probably had it up to here with my constant questions... my neediness...
It's so hard to change something that you've become so used to.
I pushed away my friends in favour of being with Pete... because I guess I was afraid if I left him to his own devices, that he would cheat on me.
What a ridiculous thought.
Imagine acctually trusting someone, believing them when they say I love you and still managing to have your own life.
I shouldn't suffocate Pete thinking it will keep him with me.
He's with me because he loves me, I just have to remember that.
I have to remember that exercise is important.
Friends are important.
I am not as important as I think I am.
My feelings are most often over rated and psycho in nature.
And I shouldn't let my anger over rule me and make me a nervous wreck.
I'm going to follow in my mothers foot steps - start a walking club of me myself and I
and whoever wants to join me is welcome.
I'm going to go back to therapy.
Talk out my issues and try to be a better person.
And I'm going to really go to school.
I'm on the war path for a newer, better me.
Sorry for those I have hurt in the past.
I hope with my new goals I can right my wrongs
and feel better about who I am as a person.

Wish me luck...